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| Bonsoir xanga. I just returned from jerald's grandad's wake. Wow i never knew so many things about him and today's actually the day i spoke THAT much w him. I learnt that he's such an eager learner and alr has goals set for his life. Somehow i saw a younger me in him. I never knew we'd so much to talk about. Such a fine and thoughtful boy he is and i thank God we had this opportunity to catch up today. It was really worth the travel to the far far east. I hope his family will find strength and comfort in this trying period. Bless them Lord.
Today i'm thankful:
•how everything went smoothly
•even the buses/traffic was so smooth!
•for homemade dinner (can't wait! Serving soon! There's salmon, brocolli, mushrooms, fishball. Woooo!)
• for homemade dinner again cos i spent all of my pocket money on the wake and dinner at home was just what i needed most. Thank God for His timely provision.
•blessed bus ride home. Watched pastor prince's 'superabounding grace' sermon and it really opened my eyes. I just know better things are coming along the way and i thank the Lord for it.
You know my innermost heart; i cast my cares onto You, knowing You'll make a way for me and bring me through it. | | |
| Was chatting w sissys about my schedule and it dawned on me that i'm pretty busy w weddings preparations and things like that.
First is shalynne's wedding.
•Doing sounds and images.
Second is felixia uncle's wedding.
•Performing two sets w the band.
This week's esp packed. Pray i'll have the strength and wisdom to complete, prep, practice everything nicely. Amen. | | |
| Wow what a night of dreams. It is no wonder i wake up needing more sleep almost daily. There's no way my mind stops thinking. Anyhow, i dreamt of-
• weird happenings in school. An infuriated (and a little disturbed) science teacher forced her students to consume strange concoctions of mixtures. Strangely, no one rebelled!? I wasn't one of them but i suggested one. There, i saw familiar faces. It's all comforting in an unfamiliar environment like this. The same ol bunch of teachers i grew to love loads. I guess i'd never realise how much i miss them if not for this strange dream. Hmmm...
• a singing competition which i fretted over cos i couldn't decIde on which song to perform. Whaaat?!
• okay this prolly can be somewhat considered constructive amongst the rest of the strange ones. A friend called to tell me he wanted to takeaway some beancurd and the interesting part is it's cinnamon flavoured. From "what i heard", it's a new flavour that's selling like hotcakes. Hmmm why isn't there such a flavour in the market? Or is there? If there really is cinnamon beancurd, wouldn't it be yumsy?
All right i don't even know what this post is all about. What i'm certain is it definitely is smarter to live the dream while i'm awake or something like that as a proverb goes. Well, carpe diem! | | |
| Ever felt such comfort that makes you break down and cry? It's such a respite words can never describe. Am listening to 'The one thing' from my 'unmerited undeserved' album and it just "boom", hit on me.
Really, it :/ to be in such a vulnerable position where spoken words determine my emotions. Don't you just wished you could be just a little less attached to things at times?
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Well i'm drained. I hope some rest would turn everything around. Lord i need so much of You.
Let Your presence wash over me
It's the One thing that i need
Your presence is all i'll ever seek
Overwhelming with Your love
All i seek us You
I wanna see you more and more
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| It sucks to be maligned. But who it came from is what hurts. I wished mummy would understand why. I wished she knew that wasn't what's on my mind. All along i thought i'm doing a good job learning to be a better me but so many events which ensued recently lead me to question if i really am. Nevertheless, i'm not gonna be vulnerable and give way to discouraging thoughts. I guess valleys are inevitable part of Life's journey. I'm just gonna look to Him for strength in every triumph and trial.
"here we'll promise to love till we die
To embrace every sacrifice
The hills and valleys in the horizon
I'll hold your hand THROUGH IT ALL" -sight of love, corrinne may
Ahhh i feel much better now upon pouring out these raw thoughts.
A call i received few minutes ago did alleviate my gloominess too!... And that's none other than dkjk's. :)
Well i'm off to meet mummy now with a big wide smile! :)) resolute to clarify things with her as well! | | |
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